on my old blog.... the one before the Great Merge, i had some pretty cool pictures of my stuff that i had taken..... SO i want to share them with you again!
also, i have a bunch of new sketchbook pages and a couple paintings i still need to add to my website.... so those should be coming soon!! :)
enjoy!
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So I tried to do one of these a handful of months back and I learned a lot about myself. I went and spent my last unemployment check on art supplies, not smart!!!! I'm not a perfectionist at all, but when it comes to things that I am going create and might be seen by others then its a different story, its prolly just insecurity. I know the whole point of these books is to explore and create and learn new art stuff, but here I found myself not even wanting to try if I couldn't see the whole thing finished in my head. (Oh wow, boy do I do that in life.) The fact that these pages were bound into the book and I couldn't screw up (or at least I thought I couldnt), didn't agree with me. I also didnt like the fact that if I made something pretty it was stuck in a book. I coulndt put it on the wall or show people easily. I also learned sometimes I get so excited about what beautiful things God showed me or about a pretty thing I made about Him, that when I share with people and they don't just squeal as much as me, then it's like disappointing. I found that some of this is just normal not everyone is going to catch it and start on fire, and then I found that my reaction also might be coming from me feeling rejected or from me wanting acceptance, like if I make a pretty thing about a pretty God then that should make me pretty, but he already says im pretty. I don't think this is evil of me, but I just can see some of the child in me that needs soooo much love. So I got over the big let down of others approvals and decided to do another page. God was teaching me something so special and dear to my heart that was symbolizing Him and me and I ruined the whole page and can not do it again because I don't have the same unique magazine clippings. I used too much paint and glue and didnt let it dry and it and every thing came sliding off the page. I havent touched my book sense.
ReplyDeleteSorry for writing a blog on your blog with my comment, but when I saw your book it awakened it inside of me again. This book will be healing for me, I just got to tackle the issues with Papa!!!!! Lately God has been trying to get at the root of shame in my life and I just think this will be one more thing to help me. When I see your book it reminds me of times when I was overseas and spent time in prayer rooms that have paper on them and people put their written & drawn & collage prayers on the walls. I loved that, so maybe my book can be my prayer journal. Yes, Bingo!!!
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ReplyDeleteI went to go open my book, I forgot to put the wax paper back inside it last time and the pages are stuck together. This doesnt help me. Is this always going to be the case with these art journals, or am I doing something wrong or using something that I shouldnt? I used some gloss gel instead of matte gel to be the top coat, is that the culprit? Any tips..... Please!!!!!!
what a blessing that God used a random post on a random blog to awaken the Creator side of His image in you.... that is reason to celebrate! that is more of Him showing up in your life... hallelujah!
ReplyDeletewell to begin with, i have had the same issues with having a hard time starting a journal bc it is a bound book and you want it to be perfect etc. BUT i have found that my best work was made out of mess ups.... in fact, now i purposely mess up a page before i start working on it... it always leads to something much more interesting and beautiful in my experience... let go of the expectations you have for that page and let the creative process take you wherever it wants to go... most of my work never looks the way i planned on it looking but it is always so much more interesting.
i would encourage you to go back to the pages that got all messed up and work with them... peel some of the collage off and add some paint... use an ink pen and draw... get some sand paper and rough up areas.. use white gesso (or white acrylic paint) to cover up a section of the page and re work that area... look at the messed up page as a new canvas to work with... get some thread and sew on the page... the possibilities are endless!!
as for the pages sticking together.. i had that problem in one of my books.. it was a pain... and i found that it was bc the pages that were touching were both covered in modge podge (gloss or matte) stuff... if you want to use gloss or matte gel, only use it on one page that will not be touching another one with the same material...
i dont use gloss/matte gel in my books so much anymore bc i found that it took away from the natural textures of the materials i use... i usually just use a glue stick to collage with... its really all you need... i also use tape sometimes.. all diff kinds of tape... just use what you have.. or use the gloss gel as a glue... i would avoid painting the gloss gel on top of your collages....
also, i had the same issue with wanting to show my work in my books.. like on a wall or something... but i have thought about leaving my journal out like a "coffee table book" and letting people explore the pages.
while reading your comment i kept thinking of the scripture:
"But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong." - 1 Corinthians 1:27
also
"So I went down to the potter's house, and I saw him working at the wheel. But the pot he was shaping from the clay was marred in his hands; so the potter formed it into another pot, shaping it as seemed best to him." - Jeremiah 18:3&4
these verses are God taking what is ugly, foolish and corrupt and reshaping, redeeming, restoring, renewing it into something beautiful....
i love this.. because i see Jesus sitting at his pottery wheel and he has me, a deformed ball of clay. He takes the time and care to carefully reshape me into a beautiful vessel that He takes delight in and he can use for His glory....
thinking about revisiting those messed up pages brought those truths to mind... a very nice reminder :)
i hope this helps!
keep creating.. the more you do it, the better you will get at it.... you will be very pleased!
THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH!!! Thanks for taking the time to give me some tips, and giving me a new perspective, and speaking to my heart, and sharing those scriptures!!!
ReplyDelete:) Lacey